I said good bye to a friend today. It wasn’t good bye forever. I imagine I’ll see her and her family within the next year when they come to visit family. There will still be connection.
So I wasn’t prepared for the onslaught of emotion when the time for good bye came. Maybe it is because I’m a little more emotional from being on my own this week with the kids. That may be partially to blame but I don’t think I realized how much I care for her.
Over the past few months, we’ve shared our hearts. Trusted. Cared. Prayed. Loved. I admire her in so many ways. I shouldn’t have been surprised when the tears threatened and I had to back away, bite my lip and stare out the window for a few minutes to regain composure.
I fully support their reasons to move. In fact, I said I am glad they are moving. I believe it is the best for them and their family. But my heart still hurts.
I’ve been learning more about gratitude lately and today was an emotional lesson. I am thankful for those in my life yet still complaints can come easy off my lips about others in my life. How can gratefulness and complaint reside in the same heart?
One amazing woman and her two awesome kids who we will now share through letters what we share around a table has made me realize how many amazing people are in my life who I need to treasure more. It is a lesson I’m slowly learning. Today’s lesson just cut a little closer to the heart than I’m really comfortable with.